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What I've Learned
03:33
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Throughout the years I've shown
Nothing but the utmost respect for you
I've broken every bone in my body just to hold you above me
I stood quiet when you spoke
I took my thoughts
and kept them to a hush
God it hurts to keep such truth behind my teeth
Hell, it's gotta pay off sometime
But when I think it's time to shed some light
To say how I really feel
I get scared
With every ounce of strength and fear
I let my words be heard
I pull each feeling from my mouth
And set them kindly at your feet
But I was wrong to think
That you would embrace my courage with open arms
The only thing I get for trying
Is the guilt of my every fault
I had wasted so much time and pride
On reaching out
On love and forgiveness
To believe is to be let down over and over again
I guess that the only thing left to do
Is just give up on everything
I'll just give up on everything
And move on
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2. |
Sad Consolation
03:50
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This day-to-day
It’s passing
It’s blending
And everything I love is put away
Come back, my faith
Did you forget that I could shout?
Have you seen what I’ve become?
I am cursing at you now.
Nothing that you’re telling me is making any sense
It’s a life I can’t live
(Come confidence, please give me strength)
I think I’ve run out of time
Are you here?
Are you breathing?
Tell me everything that makes you hurt
Everything you hate
At times I feel like no one believes me
I feel so empty
I stared for a moment
Took count of my breaths
I measured myself in worth
Such a cheap attempt to feel whole
Always wasting away
Feeling weak
Lost in sleep
I awake to nothing
No thoughts or feelings
Come back, my faith
So tell me, what more will you take from me?
Every passion that I own,
Every thought that I have shown
You've put me down
Pulled me out of my skin
Neglected my cries,
You will pay for this
It’s been some time since I’ve tried
To make sense for this aching
Every feeling was pushed aside
To make room for me leaving
Will it hurt when I die?
(Forgive me for this)
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3. |
Natural Blonde
03:25
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Living skin to skin was a mistake
(Take this as a lesson learned and maybe you won’t have to hurt again)
I tried my best to let her go
(Only when you’ve truly lost, you can start again)
If you are who you say that you are then you will understand
We won’t be dancing for too much longer
She is lost and dear to me
Without her I fall
She keeps me close
But just a taste
Need is something much more than comfort
But I don’t that that you and I still the same
Hide away in that hair of yours
Nothing ever seems to work the way I want
Need is something more than comfort
I gave everything I had only to regret
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4. |
Tree Song
04:00
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What makes a man grow
from just a little seed
Give me some thought, love
Love me carefully
I'll grow into something
You'll never see
Plant me right
Under the sunlight
Let it beat down on me
And maybe I'll believe
Believe that we aren't born
For just the purpose intended
We're good for other things
I know I'm not the biggest tree
But I'll give you all some heat you won't believe
I'll burn this forest down
if it's just to prove a point
Why am I the only hope for me
The same stories are drilled into my head
And I'm sick of it, I'm so sick of it
I refuse to stretch my roots
I refuse to stretch my roots into your scheme
I'm only living, living for me
If you're scared for me
Then I am scared for me
It doesn't help the world to panic with each falling leaf
If you're a god to me
Ungrateful I must be
Your act of kindness is
The only act not fooling me
If I'm a bitter seed
So be it, I am free
I grow the finest oak,
The greenest green you've ever seen
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Hang your head
Fall back to us for the last time
Dress nice, and smile
Leave your heart open, wide
There you lay and I can't speak
They're simple means
but they don't feed
I still think I hear you sometimes
But why
An old ghost roams the halls
Still caught up in thought
Of what it was
That made you wither
Or how it caused us all to love
But without you
It seems pointless
Is this really how it feels
Peace,
Do you believe in peace, my friend
Does it want more of your body
To stay defined
In peace
Will you accept that
your soul is quiet
Do you want more of our love
So that you stay bright
I'm awake from a bad dream
And I can't stop the thoughts from seeping in through my head
And how do you trust yourself
When you know that
all good things will come to an end
Are you just thinking out loud
We were always meant to be much more than this
But everything we love grew old and fell out from underneath
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